Hello friends and new time readers, I’m glad to see you’ve made it to my new blog Beauty Within the Hills! This post is kind of lengthy and if you read through the whole thing, thank you for your support! Many of you returning know that this post has been a long time coming, sorry for leaving many of you hanging! To my newbie readers, welcome and thanks for checking my page out!
So, for those of you who don’t know, I’m Alexis (If you wanna know more about me you can read here) and about five months ago I left Ohio to check-in to a four-month long internship at Disney World in Florida. Working for Disney was literally my dream job and getting to move to the sunshine state was all I ever wanted. Fast-forward to today and here I am to share where and what I’ve been doing the last four months! I began writing this post almost fifteen weeks ago, typed probably 5 different drafts, and thought for hours on end for a way to share this with y’all. I felt that no matter which route I talked about it in, I was going to get harshly judged.
But I’ve come to realize that despite what you think is right, people are going to criticize you anyway. So I figured, hell what do I have to lose? I worked at Disney for five short weeks before I realized I wasn’t actually working my dream job or really honestly living my dream life. I wasn’t happy and being happy with the way your life is going is crucial. I see so many people stay in positions where they are just content with the way their life was going. instead of doing something to make themselves happy. I can attest to that though, because that’s what I was doing at Disney. I kept telling myself that is was going to get better instead of doing something to actually make myself happier. I also felt that if I left, I would disappoint so many people who knew I was going down. I felt so conflicted about what I should do.
But then I really began to think about what would happen if I actually left; Would people judge me? Will I disappoint others? Will people see me as a failure? Would I be happier? Would I enjoy my life more? Will it benefit me? Will I utilize the time I have off? I kept asking myself all these questions and I even asked people close to me their opinions. But then it came to me… to make myself happy I have to do what’s best for myself because In the end its about what I want. So, I packed my belongings and left. Didn’t know what I was going to do but I knew I didn’t want to rush home. Leaving was one of the toughest decisions I have had to make, but It was by far the best decision I have made thus far.
Doing what is going to make you happy is one of the most important things I learned while I was gone. People and things in your life are going to be consistently changing and if you let that heavily impact your happiness you aren’t living life for you. Self-happiness I think is key to living a good life. I mean if you think about, who’s going to be there at the end of your life? YOU! So, why not do what you want. I stayed at Disney because I thought I was doing what everyone wanted me to do and I wanted to make everyone happy. But I wasn’t making myself happy, and that’s where I needed to draw the line in my life.
I had absolutely no idea where I was going in life but what mattered was, I actually got on the path to make myself happy. I was terrified when I left, I had no idea if I made the right decision or what I was going to be doing for the next few months. But I did have a lot of faith behind the decision I made. Within an hour of leaving Disney I felt that rainy cloud hovering over me while I was there slowly going away and the further I drove, the more I could see sunshine (Ironic right cause I was in the sunshine state). I think many people get stuck in a comfort zone and they stay there. They don’t stay because they’re happy, they stay because they fear the unknown ©. I see this all the time with couples, people leaving dead-end jobs, families moving and more. I know for a fact I feared the unknown, but I feared the known way more than something I was unsure of.
I had no idea what type of happiness I was missing until I left Disney and then a whole new world of opportunities opened up for me. I wouldn’t have found that happiness if I didn’t stop living to make others happy. I’m writing this today because I don’t want to see another person miss out on an opportunity to make themselves happy because they feared what was unknown if they stopped please others. What you know now is bound to change anyway, so why not take the step and discover something you’ve always been curious about?
I am a full supporter that everything happens for a reason and I believe I was sent to Disney for some reason. That reason being my opportunity to finding self-happiness. If I wouldn’t have went to Disney, I wouldn’t have been able to travel the south and east-coast, I wouldn’t have been able to work on my relationship with my mom, build a strong foundation with Kyle before he deployed, got to work in a community where the root of life was happiness, or of course spend two months on the beach. Each and every aspect of these last five months has formed the concrete foundation of my self-happiness.
No two people live the same life. So, I get it, my path to finding self-happiness can look totally different than someone else. But I just hope my story helps someone find the courage to pursue their happiness. Whether it is leaving a toxic relationship, quitting your dead-end job, moving across the country, or quitting your dream job, don’t fear the unknown.
While I was gone, I was able to dig deep into what I think about life and the hills we over come in life, whether that is figuratively or physically. Over the last five months I have over-come multiple actual hills (more so mountains) with all the traveling and multiple personal hills with making a lot of life changing decisions. So, I decided to rebrand my blog to fit the adventure that I actually went on. With that being said, thank you for finding your way to Beauty Within the Hills, on here I’ll be sharing more lessons I learned in life, some insights to all the cool locations I traveled, and ways to continue to love and make one’s self happy.
